Recently, I have been thinking a lot about my childhood. It’s probably the nostalgia of Christmas time full of traditions that started when I was young, watching old home videos of my first presents under the tree, the Mickey Mouse Christmas cartoons that nightly played in the VCR, that one Superstar Christmas CD that soundtracks all of my top Christmas memories to Bruce Springteen’s version of “Santa Claus is Coming to Town.” I look back on those memories and it feels like I’m cozying up with a super cheesy, but deeply satisfying Hallmark movie.
But the real irony is that I remember when I was little, all I wanted was to be grown up. I always dreamt of what Christmas would be like once I was old enough to ride a bike, when I could drive, when I’d exchange presents with a boyfriend. Even as those milestones passed, I still looked ahead to the future when I’d be married, have kids, start our own Christmas traditions…well it’s 2018.
I grew up.
I got married.
I have a kid.
Now, we are doing our first Christmas where my baby girl can walk and babble and “open presents” (aka play with the Amazon prime box her Moana doll came in) .
I’m in my future that I always dreamt of, and all I can do is long to recapture some of the magic of my childhood to pass on to my daughter.
So I play the Mickey Mouse Christmas movie, Amazon Alexa sings “Rocking Around The Christmas Tree,” while I sip my 12th Peppermint Mocha of the week. Yet, strangely my Christmas spirit meter isn’t quite measuring up to Buddy the Elf status and instead lurks near Kevin McCallister home alone and something is missing.
In all of my sentimental longing for recreating my Christmas of childhood past, and my dreams for Christmas futures, I forgot to remember the greatest Christmas present.
This Christmas isn’t going to look exactly like my childhood, and I have no idea what next Christmas has in store for us, but I do know that this Christmas we get to be together and celebrate something more profound than lights, carols, and movies.
Linus said it best to Charlie Brown, but I think he stole it from my guy Luke “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord.”
So here’s to remembering this Christmas season the best present this world has ever received.
Merry Christmas Everyone!